This sem has been interesting. Even though exams are in a few weeks. Haha.
For the first time, Cherlyn and I were in the same class! And despite not really concentrating in class because we were in our own worlds, laughing and stuff, preparing for board meeting etc, I'd say it was really fun. David, Chee Han, Cherlyn , Crystal and I. Soo many jokes I don't even know where to begin. I wish i could video record every fun moment in my life and just play them over and over again, just in case i miss out a few details or in case i forget some bits of it.
Since this semester was considerably slacker than last sem (but increased frequency of tuition which tires me out SO MUCH) got to spend more time with the bf! Realized that he likes family guy and some nonsense bird dancing routine.
Went crazy over shinee and yoo-geun. YOO GEUN IS SO CUTE> but he is a little spoilt. they should discipline him more properly. ok he's just this little 3 year old toddler that shinee had to take care hahaha
Ugly Betty season finale this week!! OMG! And how I met your mother is coming to an end soon, last season right? SAD.
What else happened to me this semester? Hmm, screwed up marketing ppts, need to do more shopping, i have too little clothes!
I hope that somehow I can find some loyalty to my school in the next two months, otherwise i won't miss this place much, will just miss the people.
roller coaster from south spine to north spine FOR THE WIN!
In 205, you learn that there are 4 ways to deal with problems.
1) Acceptance Just accept that there are differences, and love each other for who they are. Treat the differences as the beauties of the person.
2) Reduction Talking about the problem and finding ways to reduce it. This is obviously the best but is the toughest to implement because it takes time to change things and not everyone will accept the changes positively.
3) Avoidance Don't do anything about it. This is the easiest way out, but effectively it just accumulates the problem and sweeps everything under the carpet. One day the carpet will burst.
4) Sharing I don't really think this applies to most problems, because in the text they want you to share between persons like buy insurance and shit. Haha. Don't know how this can apply to normal problems.
Do any of you still keep the toys you used to play with when you were younger?
I do.
I still have a drawer full of old Barbie Dolls. I don't know why we haven't thrown them away. They're so sentimental you see! Even my mum kept her favourite Barbie doll and passed it to me (but by then it was so dirty and old I just chucked it aside. Woops) It's still nice to look at them, comb their hair once more.. y'know?
There's one toy that I don't think I'll ever throw away. ( My mum attempted to, but I scolded her and brought it back into the house. Ok not really scold but I was quite upset she threw it out without asking me ) It is my...
Hello Kitty Cashier!!!
Comes with it's own barcode scanning thing.
Well, when I was younger I really wanted to be a cashier. Yes yes I know, not glamourous, not a police officer but wth a cashier?? I really loved the thought of just holding items and scanning it, counting money and... scanning more items :D
Until now, the thought still thrills me. Pressing buttons onto a machine, generating a receipt. Oohhh.
There is no point being happy. Happiness only lasts only for so long. Misery loves company. It creeps onto you without warning and engulfs you. You struggle, manage to hang on to a ledge before you slip all the way down, but one by one, your fingers slip. Damn those sweat glands, damn life.
Why did things happen this way? What is the key to eternal happiness? Why can't we have perfect information to make perfect decisions?
Why is it, that every time you hope, your disappointment is so vast that it leaves a big empty hole in your chest, your eyes brimmed with tears, your throat screaming in despair?
There is no point hoping. There is no point looking forward to the future. What do I see?
I see a girl who will graduate next year, in June 2011. Whatever her grades may be, it is not enough for the people of this world. Nobody is proud of her. She is not proud of herself. She did not get what she wanted the most. What is the point of being in a university if you are not happy? If your happiness only lasts for a moment? The ground starts slipping away again once you start to remember.
Juggling jobs, rushing from place to place, falling sick, trying to act as though she doesn't know anything, just so she can mask her true feelings, her true mature thoughts, which she only shows to those who deserve it.
She yearns for things that she dares not get. She knows she will not get, and she should not get.
01. What did you do in 2009 that you'd never done before? Ooh! :) Alot! Obviously learn new modules, worked with different people, wah so many leh.
02. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year? I don't remember what they are, but i bet if i checked my blog for an entry made last year i would find it, but i don't want to check lol.
03. Did anyone close to you give birth? No.
04. Did anyone close to you die? No.
05. What countries did you visit? Korea and Malaysia!
06. What would you like to have in 2010 that you lacked in 2009? Learn golf! Go travelling more?
07. What date from 2009 will remain etched upon your memory, and why? 28th June, 28th July, 28th August... :)
08. What was your biggest achievement of the year? Hmmm... scheduling the Korea trip and planning it by myself? Apart from that... getting Kenny! :D
09. What was your biggest failure? Ah... bad time management?
10. Did you suffer illness or injury? A week ago i scraped my thigh against a chair, theres still one big orh cheh. Cuts and bruises from banging into things, as usual. Last year I burned myself with a motorcycle exhaust! Heh!
11. What was the best thing you bought? Eh.. I don't know. I spend a lot on food and random things. My money just disappears so fast! Maybe buying myself the Korea trip :D
12. Whose behavior merited celebration? Me taking off the Triangle plate from the car! Haha.
13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed? Uh, I try not to think about unhappy things!
14. Where did most of your money go? Food. :(
15. What did you get really, really, really excited about? Wow. Alot of things get me really excited but my memory is really bad...
16. What song will always remind you of 2009? Lady Gaga- Bad Romance, because it is overplayed. And of course 2NE1- fire! AWESOME SONG.
17. Compared to this time last year, you are: Fatter (my friends say i look chubby), more in tune with uni life, richer (spent all my money in japan heh!), ok i don't know what else.
18. What do you wish you'd done more of? Studying? Cooking. Packing my room.
19. What do you wish you'd done less of? Tuitioning, even though it gave me money.
20. How will you be spending/did you spend Christmas? Relatives house celebrations! And waiting for Kenny to come back!
22. Did you fall in love in 2009? :)
23. How many one-night stands? Don't have!
24. What was your favorite TV program Gossip girl, How i met your mother, there aren't any nice japanese dramas recently. sad.
25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year? Don't think so. Hating is bad!
26. What was the best book you read? Crap. I haven't been reading either.
27. What was your greatest musical discovery? Wah. Korean music I guess!
28. What did you want and get? Kenny! Haha! So corny.
29. What did you want and not get? First class?
30. What was your favorite film of this year? Still lord of the rings, or pirates of the carribean, because i rewatched. haha!
31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you? i am 20! on the eve i spent a romantic night with baby who planned it all out. LOVE. on the day itself though, i was rushing a stupid company law assignment and in the end i got a B+. or was it a B? crap man. i never seem to do well on things that happen on my birthday. the previous year i had an IT quiz and i got 50/100. the year before that was prelims, econs and chem paper if i'm not wrong. econs got an E. i think chem i just hit an A. but thankfully at A levels my econs improved to an A! amazing econs teacher. woohoo!
32. Whats one thing that would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying? If I could eat the herbal ginseng chicken in korea. damnit i am still regretting. why are my regrets about food!??!
33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2009? Changing! I am liking more patterns now. Haha!
34. What kept you sane? Food, Kenny, tears.
35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most? Isn't these type of questions so secondary school? Well, I think our tax teacher because we kept talking about her during lunch LOL.
35. What was your favorite video game of the year? The Sims 3!
36. Who has made the most cameos in your dreams this year? I've been so tired the past few months that I am mostly dreamless! Or I just remember ones where I am running away from something. Hmm.
37. Who did you miss? Everyone. All my friends, my overseas friends, EVERYONE!
38. Who was the best new person you met? Wah! There is no 'best'. I love everyone. I really met a lot of new people this year, and learnt alot about different cultures and races. Like Jimmy from US, Wong from Viet but lives in NL, Kelv from NL, Shane from Canada, Jimin from Korea, Won Keun from Germany/Korea , Fiona, Heather, Julie from Scotland, Sami from Scotland, and the recent friendship camp, Crystal from Liberia, Tomas from Slovakia, Maria and Oleeg from Russia, Gabriela from El Salvadore, Nesmarie and Luis from Puerto Rico, and a bunch of other people I can't remember their names or their countries but I recognise their faces. LOL. Amazing stuff.
39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2009: Love is amazing!
40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year: The first one that popped into my head was "baby there ain't no mountain high enough ain't no valley low enough ain't no river wide enough to keep me from getting to you baby'
but that sums up... er. not alot. hahaha. so i will think of another one.
'i've been, waiting, for my dreams to turn into something i couldn't see it looking for that magic rainbow on the horizon but i couldn't see it until i let go gave into love watched all the bitterness burn and i'm comin alive body and soul feeling my world start to turn
and i'll taste every moment and live it out loud this is the time this is the time to be more than a name or a face in the crowd this is the time, this is the time of our lives'
When you wake up in the morning, still feel sleepy, go back to sleep, wake up again, sleep again, then finally when you can't sleep anymore, you just laze on the bed until you're ready to get up.
Sorry, school killed me. Literally. 3 presentations this week results in a stack of readings un-read, eye bags, eye rings, fatigue, homework, and stomach discomfort. Urgh.
If things were different. Not saying I am regretting things now, but still. Was just wondering some time ago.
Two scenarios!
First scenario, Tuesday and Thursday mornings, my alarm would ring, and I'd automatically switch it to 'Snooze' and laze on my bed for just a while longer. Cherlyn's alarm rings. She switches it off. We both lay on the bed and snuggle in the comforts of our respective blankets and pillows and finally, one of us will get up and get ready for school.
Because we will have Company Law class together. And we would be in the same class together. How interesting to be working with my rommie! People would be in our rooms when we get ready for presentations.
Classes that end at 4.30pm.... Going back to Hall 8, sleeping for an hour or two, waking up for dinner, doing work... chatting with Cherlyn, sleeping at 1am, chatting with other people, playing with our own respective bears...
This semester we will not have as many guests as we did last semester though! The room is full of memories. (It has been renovated! It looks prettier and is no longer grey) Too many things have happened in that room, happy and sad memories! But part and parcel of life anyways.
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Option 2
Sitting at my desk in my dorm room in Amsterdam right now, tried brownies that tasted really good today, went straight to my head and I can't remember what happened after that, except I was very happy and could not stop smiling. Wong brought me to a really nice japanese restaurant to eat for dinner! Yay. And Kelvin brought me to the famous male reproductive sexual organ museum in amsterdam!
Meeting Darryl and the other Maastrict people during Oktoberfest in Germany!
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But my current life has many many merits as well. And as much as I'd like to experience the two options, perhaps they will belong to me another time in the future. :)
I met up with Cindy, Aar, Ghis and Claire for dinner today. And one of our topics was about marriage.
Catching up with old friends, chatting about whether this person is still with that person... and Claire suddenly said that we're getting old. And we are. Oh shit we're turning 20 this year, and Cindy wants to have kids by 24. Latest by 26. And she's still single. Yeah, we laughed at her for quite a while.
I realised that a lot of my friends are planning to get married to their boyfriends/girlfriends now. Wow. I mean, when you're together with someone, sure, you think, yeah ok we'll get married EVENTUALLY right. (When it's serious!) But... NOW? When you're in university? Or they're planning to get married immediately after university. Holy crap.
How do you finance the wedding? How do you finance a place to live? Don't tell me you're going to stay with your parents or in-laws. That, I will NOT do. When I get married, it's a whole new chapter of my life, which I want to start anew.
So, I always assumed that I'd graduate, get a stable job... find (or already found :P ) the right person, settle down, and then maybe at 28 I'd get married? Pregnant soon after? (Ok, not sure about kids bit, I mean, I'd want kids EVENTUALLY but not so soon? Not sure)
What's the rush anyways!
Well, for all you know, a few months down the road, I'd have an entry completely contradicting myself because I'd be happily attached. WHO KNOWS!~
But for my friends who are planning marriage... good luck! And I will sing for your wedding! For free! Ok, as long as I get excuse not to pack such a thick ang pao. HAHA. KIDDING!~
I dreamt that I went to Thailand. To go shopping, get a manicure, spa, massage, explore the place, go crazy with shopping, buy shoes that are 200 baht. I dreamt I would go with people whose company I enjoy and then we will have a blast together.
I also dreamt that I went to Bintan and/or Tioman. Lazing on the beach in my bikini that-has-never-been-worn-before and maybe going for a spa. And then lazing more. Maybe play some Monopoly on the sand. And snorkelling! Looking at pretty corals and small fish. As long as I had a turquoise blue sea, I was happy.
A recent dream, dreamt that I went to Korea. Meeting up with some of my friends in Seoul, stuffing jajangmeun in my mouth, ordering take-out, oogling at Korean guys on the street, maybe do a little shopping because it's too expensive. Going to Jeju island to see how they film Korean dramas! And of course, with awesome people who are interesting and will make the vacation really fun.
Then I woke up from these dreams and found out that I have one dream that will turn into reality.
Which is my boss trying us to Kushin-bo tomorrow for lunch.
Claire.
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